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Thursday, August 18, 2011

Shapes of The Sky

Have you wondered, what are clouds?
Have you wondered, what are they made of?
Have you wondered, what do they symbolize?
Have you wondered, what are they trying to tell you?
Have you wondered, why do they have shapes?
Have you wondered, how do you feel when you look at them?
Have you wondered, what if you look at them?
Have you wondered, anything about clouds?

They say, there's always a silver lining behind clouds.
It means when something bad happens,
there's always some good reason behind it.
Does it mean, clouds symbolizes negativity?
Some say, there are legends behind the clouds.
Dragons born in clouds when there is a thunder storm.
I say, clouds have a life too.
I believe there is a God hiding behind the clouds, watching over us.
I always feel happy, and calm when i look at the clouds.
I often talk to them, as if there is someone listening to me.
I often keep an eye on any shapes of clouds,
thinking they might mean something.

It is true, everyone's perspective is different.
What do you see? What do you think it tells you?
Somehow there might be one or two that thinks alike.
But do they really mean something?
Or it is just true beauty of mother nature?

Isn't fascinating that everyone looks at it differently,
though all of us are looking up at the same sky?
It feels so close sometimes, yet it is hundred millions miles away.
It is something we can never touch, yet it is something we want to cherish.

Some inspiration for me, and hopefully some inspiration for whoever reads it.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Flowers Are Forever

Last week I went to Putrajaya Floral Expo 2011, their theme this year was "Roses Are Forever". Though not all were roses, but there were many kinds of flowers and I've shot many of them. But I only edited some that has a nicer angle and looks nicer after editing.

There were many people walking around, taking pictures with flowers.
But for me i think is best to leave them alone.
They say roses are forever, but all flowers wither away as time goes by.
For them to be forever, i think it should be shot the way they were, and the way we see it as if we're at that time and place.
So i tried my best to stay out of the crowd, and try to shoot without people in it.
Enjoy! Hope anyone who reads it likes it =)



Friday, July 1, 2011

You Will Know...

Many of us have been through the same situation, same problem.
Though not all of us understood it, solved it, let go of it.

In time, you will have to face the truth.
In time, you will loose strength, and faith.
In time, you will know it was worth the wait.
In time, you will know letting go was the best decision.
In time, you will know he's not worth a penny.
In time, you will know who are your real friends.
In time, you will grow up and learn from the mistakes.
In time, you will find someone even better.
In time, you will believe in it again.
In time, you will know he's the only one you need.
In time, your search would be complete.

You will only realize when you look back, and like always...
Looking back is only reminding you of where you are now.
The memories are always the sweetest, and the saddest.
Dont be afraid, for if you learn...
A better future will be waiting for you....always.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

11/06/2011 - 18/06/2011 Guang Zhou, Macao Trip

This was the first time i went to Guang Zhou to visit some of my long lost relatives, trust me...when i mean long lost, means i have never met them before and they expect me and others to reunite with them in China. My oldest cousin is now 60+ years old, imagine that...LOL

So, i find some things amusing because it is old fashion, yet...it is also frustrating because it it still old fashioned when China had progress so much in these years.

I cant believe they have KFC bicycle delivery....

These are Valentine Crabs (direct translation). They are named because each of them only have one clamp, and two crabs will have a pair of clamps...get it right?

Dinner night at my cousin's house, this was an original chinese poem written by my uncle (their father), using my cousin and his wife's name in it.

Look at how much they serve their guests! Trust me, this was not the worst. Too bad the worst wasnt caught on camera xD

Went to Macao and stayed over a night at Wynn Hotel (opposite of Casino Lisboa).

Beautiful night scenery, but not the best polite people everywhere, not even when we're at Guang Zhou (worse than Macao locals).

This is Venetian. High ceilings, big space...feel so small in it hahaha!

Dinner at Casino Lisboa (also a hotel)
By the way i went with my love and my mom...

Doesnt this looks real? Is a LCD display in City Of Dreams, Macao.


These are only some of my favourite photos, there's a little bit more in my Facebook. ^^

FYI, if you go China DONT eat cheap food. Rumors heard from the locals that high class restaurants sell their left over food (from customers) to cheap restaurants or hawker stalls.
Other than that, i guess there's nothing much to worry about? Oh and of course wash everything you use while you're out cause' it might not be super clean =P

If you're a gambler, you have to go Macao!! I cant even count how many casinos there are in Macao. Just keep walking you'll see alot hahaha! And go St. Paulo (the pic above), thats where the souvenirs are. Enjoy!! =)

Monday, May 23, 2011

Live Life The Fullest

Its been awhile, because i got bored of me being the only who reads my blog.
Im not sure how life has been for me,
I dont even know how to answer when someone asks me...
But, i wonder...Isnt it suppose to be this way?
I dont know...im lost.

Sometimes life just doesnt go the way we wanted it to be, and when we look back...
Almost everything that we have done, are not the ones we thought we were going to do.
Friends leaving for work or study, family members making their own family...
Worst is rumors keep circling that Judgement Day is near...
We're gonna die soon... etc etc etc~
And we forgot the most important thing apart from all that, is to live life at the fullest.
Not sure if i got that right but...something like that =S

We work and work and work, till we suffer and cry and eventually break down..
We forgot to look up to the sky and smile,
For we are still here standing and living at this very minute.
We always complain and try to live a better life,
But the thing is we already have a better life...better than others.
Think about the children in the 3rd world countries,
Think about the unlucky mentally or physically handicapped ones,
They should be the ones that try to live a better life.

In life, there's always ups and downs (we all know that).
In life, there's always problems that we have to solve (we all know that too).
But in life, we might not always learn how to fully enjoy every opportunity,
Enjoy every moment solving the problem,
Enjoy every ups and downs...
Because we wont know, that might be a one-shot-through thing...
We might never experience it again...
Come on, how often do we drop all the way down to the bottom and reach high above so close to the sky? (metaphorically speaking)

Is a short post this time,
Its just something thats been going through my mind lately,
I hope it inspires someone....
IF someone reads my blog =S
Enjoy! =)

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

People Never Change

Something struck me somehow today.
Im not sure if its the weather, the lightning, or the thunder...
Or just pure curiosity that kills me.
Something isnt right, something is not suppose to be the way it should be.
And im not afraid to write it here.

I found out, HE deleted his facebook account,
Or he just block everyone and everything wanting to start again.
At first is alright. You know, is non of my business anymore anyway.
But after awhile, this byotch deleted her account too...or she blocked me =S
Anyway, somehow this two person always tangled around each other even though they have their other half. I actually wont be surprised if they were hiding something.
But my curiosity just keeps bugging me, wanting to find out more.
If you'd ask me, i'd say they still keep in "touch". If you know what I mean ;-)

But something i dont understand, does the girlfriend knows about it?
Would she be so stupid? As stupid as i was in the past?
If she knew, why would she still put their couple picture as her facebook display?
Well, cant help it if she's really THAT stupid to believe the guy who betray the first girlfriend to be with me, then betrayed me to be with the bitch, THEN betrayed her to be with me again...AT LAST betrayed me again to be with that girlfriend now. =S
I know is confusing, i hate it too. But is the truth, and is the guy who made it confusing.
No doubts about that!

Still, who knew i could fall in love so soon again and with someone better than HIM of course.
I appreciate my boyfriend being supportive as always. XOXO =)
Though the guts in me just wont seem to go away...not until i find out the truth behind it.
I hope they see this, i hope this spreads, and i hope they know who am i talking about.
By the way, I know im a byotch, but i didnt know SHE could be such a BITCH and HE could be such a LIAR and BASTARD without anyone noticing. They just never change dont they?

Cheers to it and enjoy yourselves bitches and bastards! =D

Sunday, March 6, 2011

没有脚的小鸟

有没有想过做一直没有脚的小鸟?
有没有想过你周围有人想这样做?
没有脚的小鸟,是什么?
没有脚的小鸟,是永不留下脚印;
没有脚的小鸟,是一直在天空飞行;
没有脚的小鸟,只能享受当下天空的风,
没有脚的小鸟,永远不为谁而停留;
没有脚的小鸟,永远不会明白思念的心情;
没有脚的小鸟,永远不会明白家的温暖;
没有脚的小鸟,只能一直飞,飞到终点。

我只能说,我终于明白为什么我妈妈最讨厌说谎的人。
这么短的post,我也是第一次...
因为我实在很不甘心,也同时无言了。

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Introducing MY MARKgor

Introducing my Canon 5D Mark II.
I didnt know how great was it, until these pictures showed me.
At the moment i am still researching and learning on how to fully utilise my MARKgor,
but for as far as i've used it, i love the amount of light it can absorb.
Even in the middle of the night with just street lights around,
some of these pictures looked like the surrounding is bright enough.
Of course, i also used a 50mm to enhance the portraiture. =)








Even in Monochrome mode,
Tom looks awesome!!
(FYI Tom is my beloved pet)



There's more to come, There's more to shoot.
My "destiny" awaits. Enjoy ^^v

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

CNY 2011

I dont care if its Chinese New Year, or Lunar New Year or even just New Year...
All I know is that i had a different experience this year, a happy one of course.

CNY has unofficially ended (officially ends on Feb 17).
This year i've been observing around...
The people, the sale...the clothes people wear, even the songs.
I realized that the songs are getting better...
Well at least we would hum together somehow even though we might not like it that much. xD
The shopping sale? WOW the sale...thanks to the CNY sale i manage to get a few clothes my own.
I also realized that CNY has become a fashion show.
Doesnt matter what colour you wear, as long as you can show the best of you.
Dont you think people try to look their best every time they visit during CNY??
I do, in fact im one of them. =)
10 years from now, China might even have CNY cat walk shows =O

You know what are the few best parts on CNY?
Not the clothes, not the sale...Yes to the food! xD
And of course, something I see that made me felt the warmth.
We all know is important for families to gather for dinner on CNY eve.
But I dont think that's the time to bond...
The time to bond is before CNY, when children need to help their parents.
Buy the ingredients, buy the drinks, buy the junk food...
Everything that parents have no strength to hold, us children need to carry.
It is special, is not just grocery shopping!
Children would get up early in the morning just to go to the market with their mum!
They get to talk, chit chat a little...
Parents might even pro-long the grocery shopping time,
Just hoping that their children would talk more, sleep less and help more too xD
In the end the food is just a result of after-bonding time. =P

Another best part is when your relatives visit.
Okay, maybe you dont talk to them or you dont even understand what language they're speaking.
But, dont you think you are understanding your family root?
Is not just the ang pau, or communicating...
We gather every year because we should remember!
Remember our roots, our relatives' faces (in case you forget)
Remember how we all came about.
Some of us might even only meet once a year!
So we all should cherish it while we can...

A different experience for me this year,
I followed my another half back to his hometown - Mentakab, Pahang this year.
No fancy bed rooms or bathrooms (heater doesnt work properly ><)...
But I felt their hospitality.
What more can I say? They all fed me well for two whole days! =D
I also met some of his friends...
They were, funny...likes to gamble =..="
And most of them moved out, but is great to go back and meet some old friends there =)
I loved the place. It was quiet (except the motor sounds).
There were stars and trees everywhere (mosquitoes too ><)...
Peaceful is the word to describe it. =)

Almost forgot to mention I have successfully sold my Camera body and lenses.
Gonna get my Canon 5D Mark II very soon!
Im so excited! So many things to learn -_-
Of course dont forget im getting another tatt on Thursday!
Thrilled for that!!! Cant believe im doing it again...
Cant wait for both of it be in/on my hands!!! =D =D
Wish me luck...hahaha =)


Saturday, January 29, 2011

A Little Something In My Mind

Sometimes I wonder, how and where did it all began...
Everything you have, and everyone you know.
Now when I think back, the memories are still clear in my mind.
But somehow i forget, Why?
Is it because it is not important anymore?
Or is it because precious memories are meant to keep at heart?

In my 21 years, i have to say...
I dont have many close friends, a.k.a BFF.
I used to think that friends leave as we grow up,
and we will never have any Best Friends Forever.
Nope, i never believed Forever exists in any way.
But something changed me, and I dont even remember what did...
Next thing you know, I have this 4 important friends, my BFFs.
Though we don't see each other that much,
or talk to each other that much...
But i know for sure, our friendship will last forever.

I used to think i'll die alone when im old,
or i'll die of cancer, accident, murdered??
(LOL) I think a lot...I think too much, as always. =)
But someone changed me, and changed my life.
A great influence he is, and a great boyfriend he was.
He was the first one I really fell in love with,
and actually made me believe our love will be Forever.
Of course that didn't happen.
Not only that, his absence changed my whole life.
My attitude, my dressing, my personality, my...everything.
I cannot say that the break up was the right thing to do,
because I do regret it sometimes.
But, it was good for me. It changed my expects of life,
and perceptions about many things, including relationship.

Do you think that sometimes, somehow the ones that you love,
or the ones that truly love you, leaves you?
It happens to me all the time.
Not only i am talking about the people,
sometimes even the things I like the most,
or I treasure the most, I'll loose it somehow.
I'm afraid about this happening again so much,
and now I don't even dare to love anyone THAT much.
I'm afraid one day they'll leave me.

Leaving is not the hardest part actually.
The hardest part is when you find out tons of lies that you cant even imagine.
I, as a girl who already thinks too much,
cant even think that someone would do something like that.
But we all just gotta accept the ugly truths, right?
Maybe I should stop giving people too many chances.
Chances I give are not appreciated.
They won't think is a chance to change,
But another chance for them to do it again and try to make the perfect cover up.
When most of them know I'm too hard to be blinded.

I can only see,
I can only listen,
I can only believe,
I can only try,
I can only trust,
I can only hope,
I can only wish,
I can only dream...
that much, to keep myself away from those awful things happening again.

P.S Follow your instincts


Thursday, January 6, 2011

一生爱一个?

想一想,我们一生爱过几个人?又能爱几个人?
被爱过几次?又被抛弃过几次?而且还抛弃别人几次?

就因为所谓的承诺,所谓的计划,就把自己封锁爱死一个人吗?
如果达成了以后,又会怎么样?

人往往说话都很矛盾...
我爱你,我不爱你...
这一切都只是白话,
如果没有行动证明,
就是白话...空口说白话。

为什么有些人就能对你说“我爱你”,“我在乎你”,
可是转个头就背叛你?
如果他背叛你,而你原谅他,那你又算什么?
什么都不是,什么都没有。
因为从你盲目相信他一切的时候,你就是空白了。
抛开自尊,抛开观念,抛开原则...
奋不顾身的去爱了。
这时候你应该知道,你也必须要有心理准备去受伤了。

有人说,让你流泪的人不值得你去爱;值得你去爱的人不会让你流泪。
两个人在一起,开心有多少?伤心又有多少?
难道真的当你说对不起的时候,就是代表你已不爱他吗?
这些我都不了解...为什么要这么复杂?

我学懂,不要去问为什么,也不要追根究底。
因为你永远都得不到答案;因为答案只有他心里最清楚。
而他永远都不会告诉你他多爱你,多恨你。

因为想念,所以想见。
但为何见了,更加想念?
我们都不应该藕断丝连...
那只会让我们更迷茫。

爱了,伤了...还能再爱。
为什么要让自己痛苦?
我们都不应该让自己不由自主地去想念,
而是要强迫自己不想念,让自己变得坚强。
让他知道,你没有了他,也可以过得很好...过得比他好。

要知道,他的离开,是上天的安排。
老天爷都爱我们,他知道这个不够好...
所以让他离开,让我们找到更好,更适合,更爱我们的人。
只要我们相信,我们一定可以找到幸福的存在。

哭累了,想累了,爱累了...
就该知道要起身向前走了。
时间不会为谁停留,我们只能跟随着走。
如果我们都浪费时间去怀念一个不在我们身边的人,
我们只会错过很多很多好机会,好姻缘。

做男人要坚强,做女人要比男人坚强。
让他后悔的唯一办法,就是让他知道你是可以的...
没有了他,你能笑得更灿烂,活得更精彩,变得更漂亮。
只要你相信,你是可以的...