It's been a long long time since i wrote.
I have no idea, what is meaningful,
and what is meaningless through out the year.
The things that i care, it didnt seem to be important anymore...
The things that i dont used to care, seem so important.
Truth is, i never regretted anything, because it only depends on how we see it.
In 2012, i've made a different decision, and went to a different path.
I've seen different things, i've grown, i've experience many different situations.
I did not regret a single second that i've chosen it, but sometimes...
Just sometimes, if we didnt try at all, we wouldnt know if its right for us.
What is it that makes us stay together actually? Money or feelings?
The bond grows stronger day by day,
though i have to admit that the heartaches are still here.
Sometimes i wonder... If i were to fail, would anyone raise me up again?
Sometimes i wonder... If i were to leave, would anyone ask me to stay?
Sometimes i wonder many many things...but somehow....
Somehow i know, the only one that can bring me back up, its ME.
Somehow i know, the only one that can make me stay, its ME.
Somehow i know, everyone would eventually move on,
because its always been that way... Including ME.
This 3rd day of 2013, headaches are more than heartaches.
Since everyone moves on for a better future, so will I.
He kept reminding me, "consider your own future first."
I understand, the best for me is what i do best.
I understand, a place that does not lay golden eggs has no value.
I understand, feelings dont feed.
I understand, there will always be rumors.
I understand, old friends remain and new ones will come along.
I understand, it wont be such a big deal if i just think about myself for once.
I understand, im one year older again, i cannot be this way forever.
I understand, if i dont change now would just be a waste of time later on.
I understand, this could be one of the biggest decision in my life.
I believe being better, doesnt mean is really me.
I believe being the real me, feels so much better.
I believe being able to do the things i like is one of my happiest times.
I believe in many things, but i've also lost my belief in some things except God.
I believe this would be a different kind of path, different kind of journey.
I believe this would be another way, another hope.
I believe, i still believe....
