Tell me something...Why do you write blogs?
Is it a diary for you? Or you just like to share random things and thoughts with people?
As for me, it is clear from the title of my blog that it is about everything that i am addicted to in life.
One of my favourite painful addictions, LOVE.
Its been awhile, since i felt how i feel now.
Its been awhile, since i thought of you.
Its been awhile, since we've talked.
Its been awhile, since we've seen each other.
Its been awhile, since i dared myself to be strong and face the issues.
Its been awhile, since i've talked about my issues.
Its been awhile, since i've questioned myself, "have i really moved on?".
Its been awhile, since i've talked to the people who betrayed me.
Its been awhile, since i've talked to the people who i betrayed.
I've realized as time goes by, i find it easier to forget about the past.
Even people's faces. Though i still remember the things they've done to me.
Why do i still care? Why do i still want to talk about it?
Maybe it is a reminder that i have to remember the experiences i went through and the lessons i've learned.
I've always thought this was the one, that was the one.
But it always end up into a bad situation and a huge break up.
I just cant believe God loves me so much that, even when i didnt ask for it,
He sends me a good man for me to love, and love him with all my heart and soul.
When my friends all asked,
"How did it happen? How did you guys ended up being in a relationship? Tell me how you guys met!"
I didnt know how to answer at all.
So...
I hereby announce the answers for all the questions.
He is my ex bf's college mate. I knew him through my ex bf.
We've known each other for 3 years now, but we've always been friends.
Until the night we gathered for one of the friend's birthday celebration,
he seemed to be more caring than usual.
In my mind i told myself, "Maybe i should give him a try, im single anyway...if he refuse to catch my hints i'll just walk away from this path."
So i did, and the sparks lighted up so fast before we both realized.
I never knew he was this kind, understanding guy.
Funny, because we've been friends for so long and i never knew...
I was practically shocked by how the way he cares for me.
And suddenly we're holding hands.
But that's just love isint? It goes around, comes around...
Day by day, i cant help to be happy that i see him for who he really is,
and love him more and more as time past.
I hate to admit this, but at the end of the day i still have to thank my ex bf.
Who introduced me to him and his friends (of course).
Stayed friends even after we broke up...
Finally we fell in love with each other.
I dont know when and how, but to have him in my life is a miracle for me.
The lessons taught me well, and now im his perfect girl.
Though we might be imperfect as individuals, but we are perfect for each other.
Friends say we are a big spotlight,
because we show our love without any hesitations and we show it all the time.
But that's just love. There's nothing wrong with it.
To have someone to love you for who you really really are, is priceless.
And it turns into happiness. Hopefully a future.
I moved on, and found someone special...again.
That's just life. If i can do it, all others out there can do it too.
I wish the ones out there, all the best finding someone better and someone that loves you with all their heart, and find happiness like i do.
P.S. To my love, Im still waiting for the day to say those words other than ILOVEYOU.
