When I...

I've always been honest enough to everyone, but somehow not entirely to myself.

I wonder, is love really so strong?

So strong that it will make you feel like you've never been in love before?

Even though you and everyone else knows that you betrayed your previous lover before?

I always think that if you cant give the best impression, then you give the worst.
As long as they remember you.

I also think that if someone really wants to forget you, they put everything of you away.

But deep down in their hearts, they know they still cant forget you for you are ought to be remembered.

Somehow some words they say or write will hint you, they still remember you.

But,

When i look back to the past, i dont think it hurts that much any more.

When i think about us, i dont think is such a big deal any more.

When i see your face, i remembered that i forgot how you look like before i see it.

When i broke up with you, i realized im better off without you.

When i remained single, i felt more love than when i was with you.

When i saw her face, i pity her cause' im afraid she'll get hurt like i did.

When i know you cant live without lies, i know i had to stop trusting people who trusts you.

When i know you talked bad behind others whom you treat them as bros, i know you dont appreciate any of them.

Then,

When i am with him, i thank god i found you so that i found this amazing guy im with now.

When i brought him out, friends were happy for me cause' i chose another guy over you.

When i brought him back to my family, i know they like him cause' they treated him better.

When i decided, i know he is the one because he understands me and my actions instead of you blaming me for it.

When im with him, i know he treats me well because he doesnt like to spend girl's money at all.

When im with him, i know i'll be happy more than ever because he never asks for more than my love.

I said all these maybe because i want to make you feel jealous.
Or im just being proud and happy because i have him.

I dont know how long this love will last, how long this relationship will last.

But at least he eased my heartaches and showed me how to love again.

At the end of the day we all should be happy for we have found someone better for ourselves.

P.S I sincerely send my regards to you.