But i had some wild, and amazing celebrations for the past New Years.
No doubt, there were sorrows in between, but it was still worth it.
At this moment, the end of every year...
I always think back, about the things i have done, the decisions i have made...
And of course the ones that i didnt do or decide to do.
I wonder, would it be different?
Would i still be the way i am now if i made a different choice? If i followed a different path?
After all, i am just wondering...
As time goes by, i realized im realizing more and more.
It may sound crazy, or it might be nonsense to some of you...
But this is how i feel.
I never thought i would have a happy life after such huge breakdown and after all the emotions.
But i am happy now, i may have to thank you for doing so.
Or i may thank God for guiding me to a better path.
Somehow is not what you hide from helps you to move on,
is about how you face it that will help you.
You may say you have moved on.
You may say you have forgotten all about me.
You may say you dont love me.
You may say you dont ever miss me.
You may say you dont care.
You may say you feel better than before.
You may say you are great without me.
You may say i only break you peace.
You may say i only gave you sorrows.
But deep down you know you're running away.
But deep down you know you still cant forget me.
But deep down you know you never said "i dont love you".
But deep down you know you miss me somehow.
But deep down you know you still care because you want to delete me away.
But deep down you know there's nothing to compare, good or bad.
But deep down you know there's no greatness to mention.
But deep down you know somehow is not entirely me who broke your peace.
But deep down you know you gave me sorrows as well.
From time to time, i admit that i might think of you.
Too bad, you're like the rain... It comes and goes.
You wait patiently to flow down into the drain...
Then the sun comes shining through and you evaporate so quickly...
I wont even remember what i was thinking.
P.S I will have a happy year ahead, because im without you.
This i promise myself.
